outfit: complimented

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Today, a woman at work said to me “I really like the way you dress.”  And I jokingly replied “Oh like kind of frumpy?”  We both laughed.  I’ve always dressed a little different from the general population.  My sisters used to tease me about how I dressed like a homeless person, lol.  But anyway, I think this woman who complimented me today was being genuine and I felt good knowing someone else out there appreciates a non-traditional way of dressing.  It’s not like my outfits are loud or flamboyant but there are eccentric aspects to my clothes, like that giant pocket and those brown socks. I didn’t wear these shoes to work, BTW.  I changed out of them and into my oxfords before heading out the door.  A while back another one of my co-workers asked me where I bought my clothes.  She commented on how I always looked appropriate for work but that my clothes stood out to her.  I gave her some suggestions on where to buy clothes but a couple weeks later, she told me she still couldn’t find anything she liked.  My guess is that although she could appreciate what I was wearing, she didn’t actually see herself wearing the same stuff.  So much of our style choices is not based on what we think looks nice on others, but more about what makes us feel like our true selves.  So do you want to buy that blazer because that’s how you think you should dress?  Or do you want it because that speaks to who you really are?  I ask myself similar questions about so many aspects of life.  Do you want kids because that’s what you think you should be doing or does that speak to who you really are?  Do you want to buy a house because that’s what you think you should be doing, or is owning a home speak to what you really want?  Usually what gives me the answer is being hyperaware of that little pit in my stomach, that little twinge of regret, when I imagine doing something I don’t truly want to do.

[outfit:  elizabeth suzann linen gauze harper tunic, elizabeth suzann twill clyde work pants (old), gold toe socks, pre-owned kork ease wedge sandals]

the one thing in my closet that I do quantify: panties (+ my favorites from the new ES collection)

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How many panties do you own?  I’m not one for counting how many items are in my wardrobe, with one exception: panties! Here in NYC, I do my laundry at “The Mat” about every one-two weeks. Anything more frequent than that is expensive and inconvenient.  I always feel like I’m at the brink of running out of panties to wear.  Why haven’t I learned my lesson and bought more?  Today while folding laundry, (something which btw, I really learned to enjoy doing while practicing mindfulness and listening to music, especially folding towels, love doing that!  seriously), I thought it’d be a good idea to count how many panties I still own to assess how bad the panty shortage is.  Drum roll please… so I own a grand total of 8 pairs of panties!  Good panties that is. When I dug around my underwear drawer, I found two more pairs that I never wear because although “pretty” I never reach for them because they are made of polyester and don’t feel nice against the skin.  Then I found 3 more pairs with holes in them (like the one in the picture).  If I stretch out my laundry to every two weeks, I tap into this desperation pile of panties.  It’s terrible.  I bit the bullet and decided I would replace the ripped and polyester panties with unbleached organic cottons versions, which are on their way.  I chose organic cotton because it’s better for the environment, but I read reviews about how it reduces your exposure to pesticides too.  Does that really matter though??! The panties get washed presumably so is it really leaching pesticides onto your skin?  It’s not like we’re eating the cotton.  I have no idea and wonder if that’s just another marketing gimmick.  My underwear collection has evolved a lot over the years.  Have yours? I’ve always stuck to mostly cottons in the bikini or high waisted cuts (aka. granny panties).  Occasionally I’ll have a moment of poor judgment and think I should wear something less boring like lace or panties with ridiculous patterns and embellishments, but I never end up wearing them, and that’s money down the drain!  Besides even if I was motivated by the idea of looking “sexy” (cringe), I really don’t think men care all that much about underwear anyway.

Have you guys checked out the new mini release by Elizabeth Suzann?  I’m really excited by the Andy Trousers.  I’m too short to pull off full on wide leg pants like the Florence pants, but the Andy’s strike a nice balance.  They are loose and wide but have a subtle taper at the ankle, that is just enough to give an elongating effect.  I’m admiring the ones in midweight linen, but don’t actually want to buy anything right now.  And I don’t feel pressure to either because I know these pants will still be there months and maybe even years down the line.  I’m also kind of over the Clyde jacket in cotton canvas.  I felt the ES cotton canvas in real life when I bought the Tilda pants in that fabric, and it was impressively thick and sturdy (I ended up returning those pants because of the bulk), but for my purposes, I think the fabric in jacket form is a bit overboard.  If I worked on a farm, it might make sense.  I do really like the same Clyde jacket in midweight linen though.  I haven’t made up my mind about the Clyde trench yet.  I like the length and lapels, but the batwinging on it is a bit too extreme to be practical for me.  Will it feel right when driving a car?  I do really like the parabola top in midweight linen and think the black version would pair nicely with a black pair of linen Andy trousers, like the one Chung is wearing here, for a head to toe wrinkly black linen monochrome outfit (it’s so dreamy!).


[image: from the elizabeth suzann website]

Anyway, I’m admiring all the new pieces, can imagine a few of them in my wardrobe, but don’t necessarily have a strong urge to buy anything right now (even if I could afford it right now, which I can’t).  Sometimes I do get a sudden urge to replace all my clothes with everything ES. Rachel Hochman on my blog roll, who is an engineering grad student at Berkeley, owns a ton of ES.  She’s even featured on the ES website in the community section!  I’m so impressed by her outfits and wish more people would post pics of their ES clothes.  There must be more people out there, somewhere.  Please come out of the shadows and share!

outfit: pastels (+ my google arts&culture doppelganger)

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Here’s a quick OOTD photo of me in pastel linens; something I can only wear indoors right now because of the extreme cold.  I’m dressed for my future fantasy life in sunny California.  I looked up the definition of pastels, and wikipedia described it as a group of colors that are “milky”, “desaturated”, “washed out”, and “near neutral”.  Something about pastels have always felt nostalgic to me.  Not all pastels are created equal though.  I prefer the extremely washed out, near white kind.  This is as far as I’ll go to adding non-neutral colors into my wardrobe.

Have you all looked up your fine art doppelganger on the google arts and culture app yet?  I’m not on instagram or any other social media so I generally have no clue, but NPR says it’s gone viral.  Anyway, most of you have never seen my face but google seems to think I look like this child, lol.  The eyebrows are on point.


[outfit:  *eileen fisher linen top, elizabeth suzann tilda midweight linen pants, very old american apparel corduroy jacket, SAS relaxed sandals, baggu crossbody]

outfit: kumbaya, spinster art teacher

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M from WFHW said the linen gauze Harper tunic by Elizabeth Suzann made her look like a “spinster art teacher”, while highly recommending it, lol, so of course, I had to follow suit and buy one too!  I’d actually been stalking the Harper for about a year already.  It’s been so long, that wearing it finally, felt kind of surreal.  Anyway, I feel very fortunate to finally have it and think I will cherish it for many years to come.

I wore it to work today with the Ranger pants.  The big pocket came in handy for holding my pen and index cards.  I usually jot notes down on an index card for each patient that I see.  Then at the end of the day after I’ve documented my notes electronically, the cards get shredded.  The weight of my phone didn’t feel comfortable in the pocket; it pulled and made the shirt awkwardly lop sided. So I held my phone in my hand all day which is fine because I’m almost always reading something on it as I walk around.

By the end of the day, I felt so relieved that it was finally the weekend!  Thank god for Martin Luther King, seriously, for all that he’s done for civil rights, and for this much needed 3-day weekend.  I think it’s really great that my institution gives us the day off for MLK.  We don’t get many holidays off, so it really means that our hospital honors MLK and what he stood for, I’m proud to say.  But anyway, on my way out, I stopped by the hospital gift shop to pick up a hallmark card that I’m going to send to my cousin (that’s what you see in my pocket).

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When I got home, I changed out of the Ranger pants, my HOPP shoes, and into my old Tilda linen pants by Elizabeth Suzann and these trusty old Birks.  I don’t wear the Tildas much in the fall/winter, but wanted to see if they’d pair well with the Harper.  The lightness and texture make them a match made in heaven.  The Tildas don’t have pockets so its nice that the Harper can make up for that.  The most surprising thing about the Harper was how slimming it felt on.  It’s a very boxy top, but for some reason I feel like it lengthens my silhouette.

This outfit feels very “kumbaya”.  It reminds me of my experience taking a 5 day immersion course in “AEDP” therapy.  A couple years ago, I was part of a radical group of mostly women therapists learning a new experiential, emotion focused type of therapy at Columbia.  It focused on helping patients heal by tapping into their “core self” and forming new secure attachments through genuine connection.  There was a lot of wisdom, powerful transformative experiences, tears, and kumbaya moments in that room for 5 days.  I also remember seeing a lot of linens pants, long flowy white dresses, un dyed gray hair, and gem stones.  It was wonderful.  I think that experience has a lot to do with the way I dress today.

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[outfit:  elizabeth suzann harper linen gauze tunic, size OS-minus; jesse kamm ranger pants size 6; elizabeth suzann midweight linen Tilda pants, HOPP essential oxfords, Arizona Birkenstocks, vintage framed eyeglasses from Fabulous Fanny’s]

outfit: on repeat


On repeat, here again, I’m wearing the same wool-cashmere turtleneck over Clyde pants.  I wore this outfit to pick up some tacos for lunch.  There was no need to carry a bag; my wallet, phone, and keys fit easily in these big pockets.  It was a nice walk today; the streets were bustling with lots of smiling faces; the Cuban guys were out singing & playing bongo drums at the street corner again–always a welcomed sign winter is over, like the town troubadour in Gilmore girls, except with open bottles of tequila and more rhythm. Continue reading “outfit: on repeat”

outfit: ’tis the season for socks and sandals


Fall is upon us people!  Every fall, I desperately look for ways to keep wearing sandals long after every sane person in New York has  transitioned to boots.  Last year I got some judgmental looks and overheard New Yorkers outright teasing me for wearing wool socks with Birkenstocks in public (sometimes I just don’t care how I look ok).

This year, I decided to fem it up a little bit with cutesy socks (maybe that will be more socially acceptable?). I think girly seasonal socks  look great peeking out of ankle booties or with 70’s style wedge sandals, with an otherwise simple outfit.

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outfit: work pants

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Thought I should post another outfit with the Elizabeth Suzann work pants that I got for my birthday.  These pants have really turned out to be a good investment.  The pockets are huge without giving you a (tacky) cargo pants type of look.  And they seem to go well with everything in my wardrobe.  My only complaint is that pet hair tends to stick to the fabric but that’s not a big deal for me.  The top is from TradeMark, a minimalist label with excellent craftsmanship.  I was drawn to the socialist vibe of this shirt and its understated pale yellow color, to add just a little warmth to my otherwise grayscale wardrobe. Continue reading “outfit: work pants”

outfit: slow pants

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The blogger at StyleBee introduced me to these amazing Elizabeth Suzannwork pants” that I asked for on my birthday.  These pants are really great!  I’m so glad they fit well because the process was truly slow.  Each pair of pants are made to order by hand in the USA.  Mine took 8 weeks for them to sew up and ship.  It came with a handwritten letter and wrapped in the most beautiful marble wrapping paper I’ve ever seen.  All seams on these pants are sewn with intent to last a lifetime and the fabrics are selected to get better with age.  I love that it is high waisted enough to wear with crop tops but fitted enough to drape longer shirts over the belly area.   Continue reading “outfit: slow pants”