Letters from the trenches

Dear Readers,

Thank God I am still healthy. I’m still going into the hospital, doing my small part in the Corona War. It’s been mostly preparations so far but we are beginning to see COVID + patients. It’s not well known, but many COVID+ patients become delirious and are highly agitated. They don’t comply with wearing masks and try to escape from the hospital, creating a high risk situation for staff and the public. The inflammation can cause infected patients to become delirious. There’s also growing evidence that the virus infects the central nervous system. I’ve been working on preparations related to behavioral problems in COVID+ delirious patients and how to manage psychiatric patients with COVID19 more generally. The doctors are extremely stressed out and traumatized as well. We’re organizing volunteers from mental health to provide support and medication management for the doctors. It’s all happening at lightning speed. This “war” is taking everything I’ve got. We are putting in 12-16 hour shifts, working at least 6 days per week, and this is just the beginning. I’ll need to take at least two months off from posting. As for my outfits: I’m wearing a black T shirt, black khakis, and black danskos every day. I wash them in hot water when I get home, and repeat the next day. Hair in a top knot. It’s all very utilitarian. But anyway, I hope you are all well and safe. Please do your part and adhere to the rules of social distancing. Hope to hear from you all when I get back. Bye!

<3, Michelle

outfit: stripes of a different color (+ a recipe)

>>> outfit: vince stripe cotton top (on loan) | vince jeans | madewell reid flats

How many striped shirts do you have? I own 5.  It’s probably too much but I convince myself each one is special in it’s own way. These ochre stripes are a bit of a departure from my usual black and navy, but I like it. I’m becoming a fan of long sleeved t shirts that are just slightly fitted but still drape a little.

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outfit: chit chat

sezane top | apc shorts | marc fisher chang loafers | lo and sons pearl bag

Let’s just pretend like I haven’t been MIA around here and dive right back into outfit-talk. I’ve been painfully uninspired and boring lately, repeating the same cropped trouser and light knit sweater combo, day in and day out. A couple times last week, excited about the new Whitney album, a sudden surge of spontaneity went through me while getting dressed. I decided to snap a photo to celebrate the moment.

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plant revival

I spent Saturday cleaning up the patio and balcony, vacuuming up all the dust, debris, leaves, and dead critters lying about. My potted herb garden was looking pretty sad. I decided finally to just give up on it for something new. The dying parsley and chives were replaced with a couple new shrubby plants, seen in this photo. I used a spray bottle to clean off the dust on my pearl ivy plant and moved it into the shade after noticing the leaves looked a bit burnt from being in direct sunlight. I bought this little wooden bench to display the plants that require full sun in this sunny corner of the balcony. They look much happier being off the ground.

And magically, the mammy croton plant (in the orange planter) is coming back to life. It had lost all of its leaves due to over watering. After moving it outside, letting the soil dry out, watering sparingly and waiting for 6 months, suddenly many tiny leaves sprouted all along the length of the two bare stems. I wasn’t sure if it would ever come back to be honest, but held out and I’m glad I did because the curly finger shaped leaves are so unique and pretty. Here’s an example of what the leaves will look like up close when fully grown.

I’m going to be posting less often probably for the remainder of this fall until my subspecialty board exams are done. A lot of changes are happening at work too. New hires are starting and although that should theoretically lighten the work load for me, it will require me to adjust to delegating and supervising, all things I’m not used to. This year has been full of so many life changes and challenges. I have a feeling though that life will begin to settle back down come winter and I’ll be able to post more outfits again for those who care. I’ll try to stay positive until then.

outfit: sweater stock

sezane sweater | lemaire twist pant | born trang sandal

Ever since moving back to LA, lightweight sweaters have been on heavy rotation, so I decided to stock up. I’m wearing one of three sweaters I received from Sezane recently. All three were keepers. I’ve never ordered anything from Sezane before, so it was a bit of a crap shoot. A lot of their styling is a tad too flirty and feminine for my taste but they do carry some casual tomboy pieces that are up my alley.

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outfit: never worn

cuyana turtleneck | eileen fisher dress | fake gold chain from Target | naturalizer flats

I’ve never actually worn this outfit in real life. About one year ago, I tried on this Eileen Fisher jumper dress when it was full price (>200 bucks), bought it, brought it home, and decided it wasn’t a good idea, and returned it the next day. Three months passed, and I found the same dress on sale for less than $100 on the internet and bought it, satisfied that I snagged a good deal. I quickly realized that I didn’t have any good tops for this jumper. It didn’t look right over my usual crew neck long sleeves. For some reason, it only seemed to look right with turtlenecks. I have a couple white mock neck tops, but the white was too stark of a contrast against the navy.

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outfit: comfort clothes, 1 sweatshirt, 2 sweatpants (+ golden milk)

This is what I wore this weekend. Truly, an IDGAF outfit combo. I’ve been putting in grueling 12 hour days lately. And on the weekends, I’ve been a shut in, studying for my subspecialty board exams. Oddly enough, it actually feels nice to get back to books. I’ve been dressed for maximum comfort and not apologizing for it.

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outfit: indoor outerwear + a movie recommendation

j crew jacket | secondhand Eileen Fisher linen shell | Elizabeth Suzann tilda pants | Vince sandals

It feels like I’ve been shopping more than usual lately. I’m getting to know what I need in my wardrobe for this new place, weather, and stage in my life; I held back for a while, but now I’m just going for it. No time to waste.

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outfit: front tuck – back tuck (+ a tour of the den)

ATM sweatshirt | TRADEMARK jeans | Vince Sandals

The weather was beautiful today. It was warm and sunny this morning. In the early afternoon, it rained lightly for a few minutes while the sun was still out. I picked up some flowers for mother’s day, ran some errands, and was delightfully surprised to see a couple friends who came over for a quick hello. I’m feeling grateful for this very normal-nice day. That’s exactly what I needed after an extremely abnormal and intense work week. I haven’t yet taken my transcendental meditation class yet, but I feel like I need it more than ever and hope it helps because life is not getting any easier.

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outfit: 3D

Ministry of Supply 3D printed sweater (size large) | pre-owned Madewell straight chinos | DV espadrille sandals

Update: I’m going to return the shoes in the previous post. They are beautiful and look cool, but they were difficult to slip on without unbuckling and buckling, and the soles were a bit heavy. I try to avoid returning things and never buy things with the intention of returning, but sometimes you have to. Oh well. The search goes on.

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